we're just ordinary people...we dont know which way to go...

we rise and we fall...we feel feel like just walking...

coz we're ordinary people...maybe we should take it slow..

live and learn.....

.......helpless.......

i didnt know it would hurt me this much....

i didnt expect it to affect me this way.....

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i cant believe i repeat my mistakes.....

....how much i wanted to.....crying wont solve it.....pondering over it wont change it.....

huuuuh...am trying best to be happy....cheering up every now and then....only to find this feeling of lost....

its a wonder how i could keep up with a masked face.....

mayb because im used to...and am immuned to....

i want to be happy sincerely.....but i guess that will only happen after every obstacles,mine and tat someone have resolve...

its a shame how i feel this way while others with heavier burden dont say anything

i guess this is the only way to relieve myself.....hmmm TT.TT

its funny how i dreamt everything and it felt soo real..hehe

raidah...i dreamt of you yest....hahaha...you came to my house..and somehow marina was in my house too..hehe.

you looked frail...i hope you are not that bad now..heeh....and ya...i even escort you back to the hospital and spent a night with you...weird?ya...i guess too.

huuh.....it's still playing in my mind...just hoping for the best....double happiness aft O's please....heh

today....

wasnt great...
it started off okay....but then....

listening to those who are goood...and i mean really gd at irk....saddened by a few mistakes..which is like...2-3 marks...made me feel like...hai...
them...losing those marks...still they get an A....me..if i were to lose those...i donno mayb i could get an F...i got C for prelims....wat do i expect...

tats why...i m sorry but i avoid smarties....but i was stucked just now....i dont hate them...but i dont like how they discuss...huuh...its hard......they wont understand the feeling of failing again and again till you are tired of yourself and felt like giving up...only to get back to track thinking abt parents and tcrs facial expression of motivation....hmm

im worried abt O's now....it seems okay now...but those big ones like maths and science....fuuh...i know im not the only one....all of us have that worry weighing on our shoulders.....

and another one just strucked me.....and i tot it was over...
i just hope evrything will get back and be okay..was really worried...calling,moaning...crying?heh

aisyah,you can do it! go go!...sista u too!!^^

heyyo~~~

wah..long time no updates..hehe

sooo.....had a great time last week..a lot of walking,visiting,laughing and such...even rudeness..sorry if i were a bid tad rude and obnoxious..i dont know wat happen to me...setan!hahah.

but really on thurs..i was really exhausted...from 7am...making drinks,carrying that huge water dispenser in nice clothes..haha weird but its wat expected of my job for that day...perjumpaan hari raya have become a running,cleaning,serving chores for us..haha but it was satisfying..it was okay..heheh

visiting tcrs was really precious to me..especially those who have stopped teaching..it was really memorable..heh

this week is for me to study...but still....i find it hard to start studying back...im tired...but i HAVE to force myself..coz it is in the end for my own good....

wish me luck in studying and get better grades.....amaths A1!!!!!!...haish...

ahhh...raya pics....dont have..hehe

haa...im free from virusses..hehe..well not quite...the 3-in-1 package has bcome 2-in-1.

laying on top of the sofa for 3 days is no mean feat..ahhaha.

well..everythings fine now...except for my bad results...aish..mummy sorry will do better for o's okay. ahhh...hav to start study now....but am sooo reluctant.

i havent really celebrate raya...hmmph..i guess this coming thurs...wearing kurung to school can still be considered as hari raya wat...its the thought that counts..haha

hmmm....all my cravings...curb it..CURB IT!..........do well first...okay please......aisyah stop thinking...ahhhhh

my life is filled with hopes...heh....when its not fulfilled..that's when it hurts and bring me down...so hav to stop having tooo high a hope. aja!!

ahhhh..victory....

after a week of stressing..brain-squeezing memorising mania...im freee...freee~~~~

well not just yet...urgh....

but at least..its just the time to revise and not hardcore memorising..my eyes..they are beautifully puffed and blackened..hahaha.

i wanna go out...but i think staying at home in front of the comp...indulge myself in games and vids and updates...is better...ahhh wat a great life....yeah rite.

hari raya doesnt seem like hari raya to me this yr...sad..heh

haish...do we get to go vacation this yr.....?i dont think so for my fam..but frens..hmmmph mayb:)...hehe


lets just think on the bright side..all those negativity...dump it,trash it...burn it?haha

Selamat Hari Raya everyone!...hehe

today was a really busy day...my arms,shoulders..ouch..haha

i weaved a whole lot of ketupats...next baked some kuehs...made arnd 16 trays of honey cornflacks(?).....tats quite a lot from what i used to make....

i was really tempted while mixing the honey....i seriously wanted to lick it off...yumyum.hahah..

and today's dinner was a feast...it's filled...my stomach too..i was soo excited..i ate extra..and got a tummyache..serves me rite..haha shud hav known better...yumyumyum the food.

oops...sirah...urgh i guess tmr i'll revise at nanny's house..hee:)


standing by you...be strong okay^-^

hmmm...

shud i be enjoying now?......i dont think soooo.

haish..wateva,i wanna have a short break from massive brain-squeezing memorising mania...haha

am gonna make some hari raya kuehs tmr...heeehee..since mum is working..will be helping her out..haha im excited..i love making those kuehs...but cant taste them yet..haha

time passes really fast...another 2 days then its raya..then its gonna be o's..and then end...wooah.

heh...hmmm...a mixture of feelings...no worries..we can do it..aja!!


ki,nan mideo...urideul mideoyo..
kb ah.....why?

ahhhh...im dying of envy...seriously...ahahah.

it was a cute 'scene'....how i dreamt of being in her place..kekeke

the sweetest group of people....heehee...

i love you,u love me~~

nxt wk....battlefield!...hope i'll do well.....ahhh havent even finish memorising..like loootsss..*dead*