.......helpless.......

i didnt know it would hurt me this much....

i didnt expect it to affect me this way.....

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i cant believe i repeat my mistakes.....

....how much i wanted to.....crying wont solve it.....pondering over it wont change it.....

huuuuh...am trying best to be happy....cheering up every now and then....only to find this feeling of lost....

its a wonder how i could keep up with a masked face.....

mayb because im used to...and am immuned to....

i want to be happy sincerely.....but i guess that will only happen after every obstacles,mine and tat someone have resolve...

its a shame how i feel this way while others with heavier burden dont say anything

i guess this is the only way to relieve myself.....hmmm TT.TT