Month of May

OMG HI.....

It's been 2 months since i last updated. So....let's see. Had a great sat morning out with Nadia. It was impromptu and we had McD brekkie PANCAKESSSS and J.co's Froyo, her treat hahahah. I should treat her instead but i haven't got my pay yet so i is a broke girl. It was nice to spend time together, just the two of us even though it was quite a short one. And yeah it's been so long since i last met her properly missed her so much. We missed each other...awwwww hahaha. With those little fights we had and stuff, well you can't avoid that when you both have your own life now and didn't see each other that much...but i guess that's what made our bond stronger. Still those 2 quirky weirdos xD

And sooo...I've gotten myself a job and it's been a month already. Getting my pay this coming tuesday hoorayyyyyy. And my bbgs are all working even Tassha hahaha so proud of all of us. Not slacking but working :).

Work can be anal sometimes but the only reason i'm hanging on is because my supervisor is nice and i found myself a bunch of nice colleagues. Unfortunately..i found myself back to where i was last time when i first start poly.....i can't seem to talk normally to a guy. I can't start a convo..it feels awkward and unfamiliar...i don't know what happened. I thought that phase was over, it's been 3 years for god's sake. Oh dear..... But that didn't really affect me that much  because in times of desperation i know i will somehow work it out lol.

I'm still finding jobs actually, related jobs and permanent positions. It's scary to start work properly honestly. I still want to continue study of course..but at the looks of it..I think this year might not be for me. I won't give up and will try to appeal and apply next year or so.....But i'll be lying if i say i'm not affected by it because i'm all prepared for this outcome. Yeah i am prepared, and i do have a plan, but how i wish i won't have to go with Plan B. And Plan C of going overseas.......how long do i need to work before i can afford to go study something that i've recently found myself to be passionate of. I can however..only hope that somehow things will work the way i wished and if it doesn't...it's most probably because God has a different path for me. It's depressing but i won't let it affect me that much.All the best!

Till next time~ Hoping for good news soon yeah. Oh! Grad's in 2 weeks sexcited much~~