Most of the time, all the time actually.. i hate to be that person who don't know anyone, don't know what's going on...just ignorant of everything.

It's not like i want to be ignorant....and i do want to find out who/what/where/why. It's just that sometimes,things just get way over, i'm too outdated and then...i start giving up to find out more.

It's tiring for me to keep asking as much as people keep explaining to me.

But yeah....it is my fault for not being attentive in the beginning. I know....and i've been trying hard to be part of everything. So don't ever think i never even thought about it, never take the initiative whatsoever, i do care. Even i hate myself for being such an insensitive, ignorant person......i don't even know what's wrong with me.