The year is going to end. 2013...should be a fresh new beginning, i guess.

Honestly, it's kinda scary for me. I have yet to make concrete decisions. I do have a plan for next year but, planning so much..you dont even know what's going to happen later on.

My dream....was to study overseas and get my degree, continue masters later on if possible. But, in my situation, as much as i know there's a higher chance for me to be accepted in various uni in Australia or UK compared to Singapore, i cant. Financially, i am unable to. And so, i've planned to try my best to get into SIT and then work....if no SIT, means i'll work for 2 years and study abroad (which i hope not).

But in life, you can plan so much without any definite results. That's why i hate making decisions and planning so ahead of time. Higher expectations would only mean more disappointment, and i dont want that.

I hate to say this...to be honest, i still have my doubts and hesitations about my future job prospective. A nutritionist, a nutrition researcher, a dietitian..? I am interested in writing a cooking book for healthier choices. I would love to bake and make a dessert recipe book  that includes alternatives to make it healthier and such. And i dream of opening a tea and cupcake shop. I have so much in mind, but i dont know which one..maybe do both at once? hahah like a fun~

To think about the future is a must, but i love living enjoying the present hahah. So currently, living in present and thriving for the best in what im doing right now is my priority. Well, sometimes it does sucks when things just screw up and your efforts are neglected but that's life, right.

I hope for a happy and successful 2013. I pray for the best, for myself, my family and my friends. May the force be with us!~~ ^_^

Most of the time, all the time actually.. i hate to be that person who don't know anyone, don't know what's going on...just ignorant of everything.

It's not like i want to be ignorant....and i do want to find out who/what/where/why. It's just that sometimes,things just get way over, i'm too outdated and then...i start giving up to find out more.

It's tiring for me to keep asking as much as people keep explaining to me.

But yeah....it is my fault for not being attentive in the beginning. I know....and i've been trying hard to be part of everything. So don't ever think i never even thought about it, never take the initiative whatsoever, i do care. Even i hate myself for being such an insensitive, ignorant person......i don't even know what's wrong with me.

Yesterday was the last day of term tests~~

As much as I 'suffered' during the day trying to stuff my brain with the crack load full of information, the paper was doable, everything that i went through came out, alhamdulillah :)

Spent the rest of the day with bestie, watched "A Werewolf Boy" . A movie I've been dying to watch, well firstly because of the intriguing plot, secondy, my OTP Song Joong Ki and Park Bo Young. Started shipping these two, while watching fancam of them promoting the movie. I know this ship wont go real, but i cant help myself, they looked damn cute and comfortable with each other.

So while waiting for the show, as usual, we went to the arcade and played basketball. Hahah, our favourite hang-out place. Released stress playing one of the game where you hit the mole continuously when it appears...hit till my arm felt numb hahaha.

So....the movie was really good. I like the plot, i like how everything made sense. I love how its very warm and fluffy and funny and then its sad and heartbreaking...it's bittersweet. It's a movie where i can go watch for a second time. It's that kind of movie where you'll go "aaawwww", and then cry your eyes out later. The people behind me specifically the guy was irritating the world out of me, i wanted to kill him. he was whining and complaining, i bet he was forced to go with his girlfriends. He kept comparing it with twilight, saying it's the korean twilight, oh dear god no. It's more like edward scissorshand. But it the end he was crying his eyes out like a baby, sniffing non-stop, i was distracted and can't really "feel" it and cry properly lol.

It ended quite late, and all the shops are closing, so we ended the day with chewy junior~  A day well spent for me, started depressing yet quite productive and tears and laughter in the end.

Holidays are starting for me, hurrah!!~~~ but i still feel quite bleargh by the fact that i have to keep checking my website and do more changes for my major project. But....i shall enjoy till next monday at least hehe.

Im not always fond of taking the initiative to speak to someone first if i dont know them that well....so i always appreciate it when the other person starts the conversation. It's awkward for me to start talking when we dont even talk that much.....and if we dont know that well, and im always the one talking first, i have this feeling that im annoying you or something. So...it was really nice to be able to continue the conversation since you started it first. I felt more relieved hahah. It's just my personality...it'll take time for me to talk to someone so casually and not sound like an awkward turtle trying to start a conversation..So, thank you for yesterday..(:

"You seems to be more into nutrition, right..?".....well, spot on~!