hmm............mayb its just a test for me to keep on working hard. Life aint that easy.

its just tat i cant help but be soo disappointed at myself when i see my results. i know i can do better than tat...i know. Tats why its even harder that i found myself to be scoring so badly.

Crying wont help,wats done cant be undone..............i knew it,when i have no confidence things will turn out otherwise.

Its just sad.....T.T...

heelllo dead blog~~

yes,YES!!! at long last..my exams are done,and here i am updating this near to death blog,haha

So...lets c....my exams,how did i do? well i dunno....altho i managed to answer all questions and finish in time...im not really sure if i did well. Last min REAL studying and walaaaa~

Its the 5th day of raya already! and..i've only been to one house lol. For studies..i sacrificed,but now i guess i can gooo already.

Im just really happy everything's done with, to those takin exams later good luck!! keeping a positive mind helps..dont ever think u cant do it coz u never know wat ure really capable of:) wow i sound like a counsellor(?)....hahah

today was fun (discard every insignificant thinking of horrible maths just now) and i had a great time. I am HAAPPY:))))) alhamdulillah,hope my results are okay tho..lol

its been 10 days of ramadhan already..so fast~

holidays.....i sure use it up..slacking at home! hahaha. well it doesnt last long coz reality sets in and tada~ ive prepared my own first study schedule..remember those pri n sec days where tchrs always told us to do our own timetable,ive never done it,haha! but i did this time..i cant afford to use my brain schedule anymore bcoz i tend to not follow and be sooooo flexible with it..if u know wat i mean >.<.

in 2 weeks,exams will haunt me...hehe. after raya,one more paper to take and wooosh im done...for this sem tat is..hehehe.

this raya,i will be the one baking everything...look forward to it!! weeheee

my love...my precious love has come to me. :)

after months of mugging and studying everyday...at last one month of rest..altho its called "study week" watever..im gonna relax and study only when i want to..hahaha

i just felt relieved now...i can finally relax well at least for the first 2 wks of my break..im gonna start studying the next few bcoz of exams.

trying my hard to score well...i need that scholarship,if i can...i dont wanna burden my parents that much. at least with a scholarship to cover the remaining semesters,they wont have to always worry..i also dont wanna burden my bro and sis...

sooo..im gonna try aim As and Bs..try not to have a C,D,F..wahhhh..easier said than done,haha

its been tiring as usual..and a lil add to it is tat im sick..well not seriously sick..just flu:).

I guess its been hard on everybody...stay strong and think positively. Its easier said than done but ive been doing it and it kept me living. Altho some people thot i would go jump off the building because im quiet and calm..wat the hell..haha.

im still trying hard to cope with everything...its near exams already,time sure pass like rocket. I was still slacking my way 3 months ago..haha

Its been quite okay for me...ive shown my true colours i guess...well tats a sign tat im comfortable with people already:) "ju-on wannabe" is my nickname now...come on i just said the boy in ju-on who meows is cute..haish.

so till then..wish me luck:) i screwed up my quiz..hahahahahahahahahah...woookay lets see how my results are..ooohhoooooo XD

haih...been too busy to update.

Quizzes..i screw them up real bad..TT.TT...wahlao,things are getting harder and im struggling. Im tired everyday...i even overslept once,thank goodness it was lecture.

I seriously need to buck up..my marks are the same or lower. baaaaddd....exam in sept....aaahhh. Oh pract exam in 2 wks..AAAAAHHHH!!!...and my pract exam this time is use the ingredients given and cook it and then do report on it...deeaddd.

haiiii...this is life..need to get use to it and move on. Oh and before i forget...i think i better go do some reading or something. Its not like i wanna study everynite..i just need to or i'll fall behind. wait...i think i'll do that tmr >.<...today was exhausting!

As the weeks passed by..tiredness have been on an increasing rate..to which i just dont feel like doing anything back home.

Quizzes are piling but it doesnt help that im feeling lazy like a sloth and keep yawning by 830pm..

Pimple breakouts are getting on my nerves as i cant stop this stress thats weighing on me...

Time please move slower...

Body and mind..please cooperate..

Thanks i really do appreciate it..

watched eclipse last sat and BBQ~~~...hahah i skipped the seminar volunteering. I just felt so lazy..even my mum encouraged me to skip,lol. I didnt know i looked that worn-out. haha..funny how they like "aisyah are you okay?"...this tired face of mine.. I hope i didnt scare them..emhaha

the stresss i guess...or because im stressing myself...i do feel tired these few days.

YOG...hurry2...i need my break like seriously..

my speech is on mon..!!!!! and yay i havent start on my speech..weehooo.

why is time moving so quickly..like seriously,i go to school,came back,felt sleepy,slept and its the next day. Homeworks not done,notes not revised..nothing! waahh..im becoming from worst to more than worst..wat is that ah..worsest?hahaha

but i never fail to entertain myself every single day,hahaha... i watch tv everyday without miss :P someone...pls wake me up..i need to get off my slacking mode...i needa study study study!!!!!!!

Quiz 2 starts next week..aaaahhhhhh *runs around room like a freaking maniac*.

and AAAAHHHHH....i wanna watch eclipse and all...in short,movies i wantcha...;(

okay...done

Start of new term, results of term tests given....
hmm..am a bit disappointed in myself. i didnt score as wat i expected..i didnt even manage to get an A..and failed my obc...as sad as i am..i need to buck up and move on doing better.

when i heard "aisyah also failed?!" from my fren..wow it felt so..i cant even explain. at that point of time,i felt depressed for a min. I told you guys i am not that good didnt i...now im stressed.

who to blame but myself rite...*bows down*...T.T.

*sigh*...but i do felt a lil better after talking with my old frens and meeting them,tat one day can actually made me happy:)

and nadia..thanks for the gift:) i love it,love ya sista;)