sooo...this is poly life...hehehe...it has only been 2 weeks...but its here already, stress that is.

tired...and sleep deprived..but the good thing is i never sleep during lectures watever it is. I pity my frens who never take bio n amaths..they're struggling while im progressing,although i tried helping them with all my might..i still think its not enough...hmmm and i found myself thinking how to teach them in a simpler way...and this is = "you're like a mother"...-____-

Since im the only one that have all those basics..even though i flunked last time...im getting it now,i understand fully....i dont really wanna be the smartypants in the class...i want to be normal but do well in her studies...if you know what i mean..hehe..i got a "so u're the brains in the class" during HAP tut today..and i like but i also dont like it..lol

Hoping everything goes well and wishing all those people who are having a hard time,good luck:)

Orientations

3 days of orientation~

my class is kinda multiracial,and filled with girls..only 3 guys...and first day was sooo...*wat to do,huh?,do i have to shout?,hi my name is.....*tat sort of stuffs..

but i guess the bridging prog,help me to adapt faster n took the initiative first. i do adapt fast somehow but now,i do it at a super fast rate...aiyyo.

i cheered,i shouted,i shamelessly talk to anybody beside me,ask for their numbers and so forth. well.i did feel awkward most of the time,but i just think tat i need to open up,jump from one grp to another and know everyone,seriously im a "hopper"...i found myself in diff *cliques*..lol,there's only like 16 in my class,i think.

its tiring its hot and sometimes i feel that its stupid..haha..but thats wat orientation is all about. Today,the last day..somehow i can see thru who my classmates are already, there's the 'every single thing,complain'..the kpop grp, the "im a f****** vulgar person", the "im okay like this,leave me alone",the hyper ones....hahahah.

this will be like my class for 3 yrs...i felt that i got to know everyone already but that's just bcoz im a "hopper"..the others havent really bond yet....*sigh*....lets take things slowly...

i'll work and study harder,try not to worry my care person,and im soo gonna make TP library my next home..heehee

New Experience

i cant believe i actually went to my sch 4 days straight,studying,making new frens..heh

and so the first day was seriously awkward..everyone was quiet,unresponsive and i was the only one who had taken amaths and bio before but score badly...so there in that particular class,i was a 'smartie'...i understood everything,i knew how to solve n answer every question available..but i admit the teacher gave very good explanation which cleared my previous doubts:)

i started to make fren with a senior,then while waiting for my next class,i made another new fren,fr my same course..we talked but there's an awesomely long "awkward moment"..hahah..i dont know what to say..keke

one by one,i met a few more,intro ourselves,exchange phone numbers,and for the whole 4 days,we were always together,went back together.

It was quite worthwhile:). The guys..umm..i havent make frens yet..still a bit unsure how to approach them and say hi..well,time will clear it all.

its gonna be hard later on,bcoz wat i learnt are just the basics..and the new class will be filled with people good at amaths and bio...dead~

and..haha,when i was asked if there are any hot guys in the other combined madr..i actually answered "im in an all girl school,so i never actually met guys face to face"..and they;malay n chinese alike.."serious ah..hahah"..and i practically covered my face and laugh.."hahah,its nothing wat..its not really weird"..haiii....

tomorrow will be my first day studying in my new school..hehe

well...im not sure if i actually will study much here..all im sure is that its like an enrichment class.

to think positively,its a step forward to prepare myself...the negative side is that im like..umm shud i say hopeless and useless..hahah. its true if i think about it...its my own fault,everything,i didnt study hard enough thats why..whom to complain?myself and no one else...i shudnt whine cos i brought myself to it...hehe

i am slow...when it comes to amaths...although those people are in the APB,when i talk to them on the chatroom,asking bout probs..they are like pros...wow..competition is heading towards me.

okay...the truth will behold...mwoya...hahaha

Get Real

reality has really struck me now...seriously.

the quizzes that i have to do on that APB prog...is not as easy as 1.2.3....its not wat i expected it to be. well..wat do i expect, im in higher-learning..not secondary anymore..i need to put that in mind.

i didnt know log and ln can coincides each other...and there's so much more to muscles and nervous system..

sarcomeres,action potential...somehow i prefer maths than bio..cos there's too much to remember haha.

next week,i'll start the face to face session...so its like im going to school..no diff actually. mon to thurs...3-6 hrs...

and im actually kinda intimidated..although i'll know i'll be able to meet new frens earlier than others...haish..u know how it feels...nerve-wrecking i shud say.

*sigh*....i just hope i can handle it...hope im not so obviously slower than others in understanding haha...and i do heard there's like smart geeks in my course...huhu...i may be a geek but not a smart one which is....BAD...

lets just see then...*breathe..breathe