okay..soo its been half a month since i updated..kekek

so today was the day..although i didnt get wat i really wanted but im happy enough with where im posted to..alhamdulillah:)

so..my life revolves around computers and tv..haha. seriously,i never do anything except playing games,watch tv and vids. i dont even eat 3 meals anymore...keke

its really boring and lame..but like my sis says..tis is the time to relax,when school reopens no free time like this anymore.

so lets enjoy this moment till april?..hehe

to all,congratz:)

hmmph...i guess yesterday was stress relieving day...

i ate,spent and really spent...i felt guilty but when i asked my mum "mak...i spent alot..is it ok?"..my mum said" of coz..its your hard earned money"...hehe...i worry too much

its great relieving stress and everything...but it just..hmph...that thought always pop in my head...even if i said im over it..its still etched in me...there will never be a time where i totally forget about it...

life has to go on rite..why brood over it....things will get better eventually insyaallah...

for me and us......it will somehow become better...

haih...with me idling at home watching tv,comp,eat,read...its no wonder my imagination went wild.....hehe..

just hoping for the best..ameen

so today was the "day"..and it sure sucks..heh..

im disappointed and soo forth....but after bawling my eyes out...im over it.

its been..hmm...5 years since i cried this much...and tat was during psle results..haish...wat a memory..

my eyes are red and puffy..hahah...stupid me...i should have just remained composed...but i guess i was unable to..

im sory dad and mum..its not the best of me..and i know i was shocked too by my results..heh

on a side note..im happy im able to at lastttt!!!! pass my amaths..although its a bad pass but at least...hehe.

and to the teachers..im so sorry i disappoint you guys with my bad grades....i'll do better in future and show that an average student like me can be successful and make you guys and me proud...

its true...i've always felt low about myself...i'll change that this year...i want to do my best and prove myself that i can do better.

failure is the mother to success.....ive failed a lot of times..and i understand the feeling of reject..this is only the beginning for me...heh. im determined..go go!!

wow..rambling so much..hahah

2010..a better year for me,us and them:)

like everyone else...... this uncertainty feeling.. anxiety and somehow.. anguish..

haih...ahhh....i wonder how tmr....i dont know how i would react be it bad or good...i just hope...it will turn out good and everyone does good too.....:)

its really nerve-wrecking..... i hate this...well the truth will be out tmr....TT.TT

im......currently idling at home....hahaha

this january..lets just stay at home and rot..kekek

im not sure if i want to go and find a new job...i want the money..but im lazy to work..tsk tsk stk

as the day approach me....my heart...ahhhh....i cant stop myself not thinking about it...every single day will it haunt me..

"are you not confident?"....hai..yes mum...im not....

well..amidst all these "problematic" issues....at least my fandom keep me alive...hehe

new news = good news..recently...hehe...

hope there'll be more..

*praying hard*

Its the 3rd day of 2010 already..one word.."wow"...seriously its so fast

a lot of things happened this year whether its good or bad....and ive gained lots of experiences...

its a new beginning and a new future but it stills stay bleak and blur for me....

the results are coming REALLY soon...and im not prepared...there's this huge burden weighing on me that i feel like going crazy...its the same for everyone i guess\

i dont even know what im going to do after this...its a whole new world~ out there..

I just hope for the best..hehe

well...talking about "best"...the chalet was great!...i miss you guys soo much i didnt even realise it..keke...talking all way till 3am..is really fun but exhaustion will surely conquer you later on..hheheh

and that "play with hair" session..hahahha..i like although its totally absurd..hahahah

thanx to marinah for the hard-worked video compilation..its really nice:)

2010..a big number huh...well...pls do bring in bigger happy events..heh