Back from the trip yesterday! Safely alhamdulillah. So the trip was uber short,haha. I need a week trip b4 im satisfied >.<.. This is gonna be along post~~

1st Day:

Set off the bus at 8am and off we goto the Egg

Tech Industry...basically thats the factory where all the eggs are manufactured into hard boiled eggs,pasteurised eggs and so forth..so food chem lolol.

After spending abt an hour there,we went to Tuas Checkpoint(stupid thumbprint wont work -_-) and off to johor checkpoint. Hadlunch arnd 1pm and it sucked bcos we were segregrated into muslims and non-muslims..i wanted to eat with all my classmates :(. Since its two group consisting of 80 people,they told us its hard to get a halal place where they can accomadate us. The food was so-so...and its not 8 course meal its 8 dishes meal lol.

After lunch back to our journey to sightseeing at malacca if im not wrong. We went to this place where all the old buildings are conserved and went a bit of a shopping. Luckily i found a mosque there,i was so happy you dont even know cos i was worried i cant find a place to pray. My classmates waited for me outside while i prayed,im thankful at how understanding they are:))heartss..

After 45mins there,we continued our journey to Shah Alam after dinner for a night stay at Concorde hotel. The hotel was super nice! we spent our night playing ugly dolls,watching tv and talking(loudly).

2nd Day:

We went to take pictures near KLCC there befor going to High5 bread town to know more abt the bread industry,went to Thai cuisine restaurant for lunch. We ate together!!! was so happy heheh. after lunch we went to Beryl's choc factory..it was fun but time does not permit and we were really out of itinerary but i managed to but a bottle of white choc for my fam:) After that we're off to cameron highlands!! It was a freaking long ride,slept all my way thru mostly. And did i mentioned,in the bus we watched Cinderella stepsisters lol and some movies. It was dark when we finally "climbing" up to cameron and the windy roads were not obvious so i didnt felt dizzy or watsoever. funny incident, both busses were halted bcos a senor wanted to pee..lol.

At last reached cameron arnd 1030pm and yay got internet!! we played cards and used my laptop. Me and tassha talked until 2+am haha. it was awesome:))

3rd Day:

After breakfast,we went to BOH tea plantation. We took a small "Bas Sekolah" lol it was so squeezy and the bus ride was bumpy as the roads are super narrow. We saw how tea bags are made and manufactured. Took some pics with the awesome scenery behind us. Bought tea bags~~

We went to cactus/flower farm? hhaha.yeah just took some pics since we cant bring cactus back to SG,bee farm too where we got pissed off by these bunch of itchy bitchy seniors who called us retards just because we shouted in fear of bees >:(. Strawberry farm next but it was a failure,there's no strawberries to pluck so we went to another strawberry farm but guess wat that one also,but at least we get to touch and bought some starwberries home. And so because w e got some time,we went to pasar malam at Tanah Rata. bought snacks and more strawberries. Prayed at Cameron Highland Mosque before heading off to eat dinner at KFC and back to hotel to rest.Last night in cameron and we went to lobby to play cards and use the free wifii>.<.. as usual talked with tassha b4 falling asleep^__^.

4th Day:

eating strawberry keke,the scenery from our hotel.
drying strawberries to bring back home

Time to leave cameron T.T..i was sad because its not enough,wanted moooreee. We set off the old reaally windy road back to muar to visit the mushroom farm. Slept all my way thru back to SG~~~

The trip was quite short,i miss cameron highlands already~~~had so much fun with the girls hehehe..now im in SG which means....do ur PROJECTS!!!.....siaaannnz

pics credit to natassha~~ :))

Heellloooo bloooogg!!!

Tmr i'll be leaving singapore fr a 4d3n trip to malaysia. This will be the first time i'll be going with some of my A2 classmates for a study trip. Pretty excited but i just hope everything goes out smoothly tmr and i go and come back safely :)

Will be going to the plantations and factories in cameron highland to study how the food industry works...i shall anticipate that hehe.

I'll be doing my project also during my stay there..hahah no choice okay or else i'll rush thru everything and it'll make me bonkers~~

So yeah,will be back thursday nite...till then~~ :))

Forever dead blog is reviving..lol

Term Tests OVEEERRRR.....i is officially a happy girl rite now i cant even..hahahahah.

altho i noe i screwed some of the papers..../dies. But...put that aside,im done with the "all-day study week". Seriously dread it. Its like i only had 4-5 hrs of sleep daily and sometimes even lesser. I can enjoy now and sleep~~

The year is coming to an end and i didnt even realise that..haha. I didnt improve much and yeah..quite disappointed in myself. No brooding over things...shall just continue with how i am and slowly improve myself:)

Going to malaysia trip next week,im quite excited but as u noe the higher the expectation the more disappointment >.<..

Hoping for the best~~

Yesterday was really crazy for me...

It started with a bad day of me not being able to remember the first topic and the mistake of me only focussing more on topic 2 which only one question came out. I was really disappointed...when i met with tudung gang,i broke down and cried. Really..i thought i was stronger. It was only a quiz. But thinking back..i broke down because the inside me cant take it anymore...and letting it out was just the way.

But i started to become happy again after tudung gang comforted me and my classmates were worried and waited for me when they noticed i was missing. Thanks u guys:)

My eyes were puffy all along hahaha....and i had the greatest laugh meeting nir,nadia,nabihah and ficky...really ur presence just filled my day.

Friends are really the people u need in ur life..without them you would feel lost and lonely..thank you~

things havent been working out well this week...and the news of my dear fren's father passed away...it adds to it.



It was shocking to me..to imagine in her situation i cant even..im speechless. Munirah, u are very strong dear. How u managed to smile and hold it in,i am proud of you. When you let it out and cry, i felt relieved and sad at the same time because letting it out is better than keeping it inside of you but seeing you cry hurts me deep inside. In some way i felt useless that i couldnt do anything to help you but just being there infront of you yesterday.



I hope you'll continue being strong and continue life as usual..we will always love you and be by your side.....

Hey~~

So first week of school...how was it? Oh "awesomely" great. I didnt know 2nd sem was this hard..im really struggling. And its not helping that im like always in holiday mood.

2 assigned projects this week..2 more projects comin my way nxt wk.

Homeoworks are piling up..and i have to force myself to adapt to the busy lifestyle again..haish.

well,enough of me whining of sch... On a side note,happy to meet my fellow classmates who always "shower" me with their endless love >.<..hahah. And meeting tudung gang:)

I hope i'll survive this sem..i needa get good grades,nope super good grades../dies. eh..no! Insyaallah :)

Sometimes wished are unfulfilled..hopes are dashed, but life still moves on albeit all these happenings.

Things dont always go your way...dreams are shattered, however you still need to force a positive thinking inside of you.

Mistakes can become misunderstandings....doubts can be harmful....

The world does not revolve only around you... things may be awful and emotions may go wild .

Just remember...there's Him...and also somehow somewhere there is at least a person who cares about you and also needs you during that phase.

These things happen...and i hope i'll be able to continue to contain myself well. Im not matured at a young age for nothing. Being responsible and a "2nd mum" since 11yrs old is no mean feat.

I'll start thinking about others before thinking about myself bcoz in this world of over 6 billion people, a lot more have experienced worst. I just experienced a tiny weeny bit of life.

Live life...:)

p/s: i dunno wat im babbling..heh

hmm............mayb its just a test for me to keep on working hard. Life aint that easy.

its just tat i cant help but be soo disappointed at myself when i see my results. i know i can do better than tat...i know. Tats why its even harder that i found myself to be scoring so badly.

Crying wont help,wats done cant be undone..............i knew it,when i have no confidence things will turn out otherwise.

Its just sad.....T.T...

heelllo dead blog~~

yes,YES!!! at long last..my exams are done,and here i am updating this near to death blog,haha

So...lets c....my exams,how did i do? well i dunno....altho i managed to answer all questions and finish in time...im not really sure if i did well. Last min REAL studying and walaaaa~

Its the 5th day of raya already! and..i've only been to one house lol. For studies..i sacrificed,but now i guess i can gooo already.

Im just really happy everything's done with, to those takin exams later good luck!! keeping a positive mind helps..dont ever think u cant do it coz u never know wat ure really capable of:) wow i sound like a counsellor(?)....hahah

today was fun (discard every insignificant thinking of horrible maths just now) and i had a great time. I am HAAPPY:))))) alhamdulillah,hope my results are okay tho..lol

its been 10 days of ramadhan already..so fast~

holidays.....i sure use it up..slacking at home! hahaha. well it doesnt last long coz reality sets in and tada~ ive prepared my own first study schedule..remember those pri n sec days where tchrs always told us to do our own timetable,ive never done it,haha! but i did this time..i cant afford to use my brain schedule anymore bcoz i tend to not follow and be sooooo flexible with it..if u know wat i mean >.<.

in 2 weeks,exams will haunt me...hehe. after raya,one more paper to take and wooosh im done...for this sem tat is..hehehe.

this raya,i will be the one baking everything...look forward to it!! weeheee

my love...my precious love has come to me. :)

after months of mugging and studying everyday...at last one month of rest..altho its called "study week" watever..im gonna relax and study only when i want to..hahaha

i just felt relieved now...i can finally relax well at least for the first 2 wks of my break..im gonna start studying the next few bcoz of exams.

trying my hard to score well...i need that scholarship,if i can...i dont wanna burden my parents that much. at least with a scholarship to cover the remaining semesters,they wont have to always worry..i also dont wanna burden my bro and sis...

sooo..im gonna try aim As and Bs..try not to have a C,D,F..wahhhh..easier said than done,haha

its been tiring as usual..and a lil add to it is tat im sick..well not seriously sick..just flu:).

I guess its been hard on everybody...stay strong and think positively. Its easier said than done but ive been doing it and it kept me living. Altho some people thot i would go jump off the building because im quiet and calm..wat the hell..haha.

im still trying hard to cope with everything...its near exams already,time sure pass like rocket. I was still slacking my way 3 months ago..haha

Its been quite okay for me...ive shown my true colours i guess...well tats a sign tat im comfortable with people already:) "ju-on wannabe" is my nickname now...come on i just said the boy in ju-on who meows is cute..haish.

so till then..wish me luck:) i screwed up my quiz..hahahahahahahahahah...woookay lets see how my results are..ooohhoooooo XD

haih...been too busy to update.

Quizzes..i screw them up real bad..TT.TT...wahlao,things are getting harder and im struggling. Im tired everyday...i even overslept once,thank goodness it was lecture.

I seriously need to buck up..my marks are the same or lower. baaaaddd....exam in sept....aaahhh. Oh pract exam in 2 wks..AAAAAHHHH!!!...and my pract exam this time is use the ingredients given and cook it and then do report on it...deeaddd.

haiiii...this is life..need to get use to it and move on. Oh and before i forget...i think i better go do some reading or something. Its not like i wanna study everynite..i just need to or i'll fall behind. wait...i think i'll do that tmr >.<...today was exhausting!

As the weeks passed by..tiredness have been on an increasing rate..to which i just dont feel like doing anything back home.

Quizzes are piling but it doesnt help that im feeling lazy like a sloth and keep yawning by 830pm..

Pimple breakouts are getting on my nerves as i cant stop this stress thats weighing on me...

Time please move slower...

Body and mind..please cooperate..

Thanks i really do appreciate it..

watched eclipse last sat and BBQ~~~...hahah i skipped the seminar volunteering. I just felt so lazy..even my mum encouraged me to skip,lol. I didnt know i looked that worn-out. haha..funny how they like "aisyah are you okay?"...this tired face of mine.. I hope i didnt scare them..emhaha

the stresss i guess...or because im stressing myself...i do feel tired these few days.

YOG...hurry2...i need my break like seriously..

my speech is on mon..!!!!! and yay i havent start on my speech..weehooo.

why is time moving so quickly..like seriously,i go to school,came back,felt sleepy,slept and its the next day. Homeworks not done,notes not revised..nothing! waahh..im becoming from worst to more than worst..wat is that ah..worsest?hahaha

but i never fail to entertain myself every single day,hahaha... i watch tv everyday without miss :P someone...pls wake me up..i need to get off my slacking mode...i needa study study study!!!!!!!

Quiz 2 starts next week..aaaahhhhhh *runs around room like a freaking maniac*.

and AAAAHHHHH....i wanna watch eclipse and all...in short,movies i wantcha...;(

okay...done

Start of new term, results of term tests given....
hmm..am a bit disappointed in myself. i didnt score as wat i expected..i didnt even manage to get an A..and failed my obc...as sad as i am..i need to buck up and move on doing better.

when i heard "aisyah also failed?!" from my fren..wow it felt so..i cant even explain. at that point of time,i felt depressed for a min. I told you guys i am not that good didnt i...now im stressed.

who to blame but myself rite...*bows down*...T.T.

*sigh*...but i do felt a lil better after talking with my old frens and meeting them,tat one day can actually made me happy:)

and nadia..thanks for the gift:) i love it,love ya sista;)

class chalet was the bomb!! I had an aweessoooomee time with the bambinas.

After a long while,seeing S4P really made me smile wide and be the happy me again. I hope our friendship stays long and everlasting :)

It was tiring..because of lack of sleep hahaha. without any reason we didnt sleep the first nite.
Talking abt politics to kpop world to anything there is. We sure matured more than we were,i remembered last time evryone were like "urggh" when tchs talk abt current affairs..hehe

This term break is very short but the 3D2N made it all. I can now bbq better,kekekeke. Applying food science on my bbq skills,it felt different...food..i just cant stop myself from applying wat i learnt on it.

And talking about food....we had loads of them~~ stomach full from it and it sure was delicious:)

I even managed to do my assignment during chalet with the help and advises from fellow frens,tanx:) i lubb you all~~


Now is the time for me to finish up on my assignments and prepare the presentation. Hope fully everything goes well. And i really really hope i pass all my term tests. Insyaallah:)

yesterday was....really...unexpected.

i thot something like that wouldnt ever happen to me,but it did. Miracles do happen~~ hehe.

it was seriously tiring but its a day tat will stay in the precious box in my memory. If my bias was there yesterday,i would be a happier kid,kekek XDD.

Thanks for the memories~~

term tests are OFFICIALLY OVER!!!

aahhhh..at last after a week of mugging like a crazy person...im so relieved now,but yea,i did screw up on most papers

i think i just wish for passing on every paper and at least get one A...i cant demand more than that. Some are really hard for me and im sure the best i could get for those are Cs or Ds...T.T i felt so burdened when my frens said that i'll get Z for all..im not that good,really...

well,push all those aside, im happy ive done my sfp project, left with only one assignment:)

im gonna partehhh~~~ dont be jealous,keke.

ahh,dread the week when sch reopens and neverending study starts...haiiii

and soo my term test starts in 2 days..ooohhhh

haaaa......dread it so much,its tiring studying soo much and nearly everyday...i want my break FASSTTTT~~....

i wanna watch movies,i wanna shop,i wanna play games like there's no tmr..in short i wanna PARTEEEHHH~~

as much as i cant wait for 13th june to come...hehe i'll have to wait and not get too excited:)

happy things aside...i just hope i can do well for all my tests..i managed to pass all my quizzes,but that's not enough,i need more than tat..

soooo..........good luck bambam u can do it!!

eerrhh...its burning me out..im soo tired,my eyes can barely stay as big as they are..

because i learnt from my mistakes and now working so hard to get as many As as i can, im exhausted to be honest...studying everyday like wat like that..haha

fri is a public holliday but its sit at home and study for me.... good luck to me...

and june...its not holidays,its project preparations..baking and ppt slides..wooowww...

i need sleep..more...4-5 hrs a day is not enough...huhuhuh

End of quizzes~~ ahhh...this thing even if its called quizzes it like tests...i mugged like wat..hahaha as if i had an exam. Term test coming...only one week left to study..

haaa...im going out today:) after a long while~~ last time i went out was just for a while...i really wanna parteh today..hahaha

i passed my SFP n Mstats..although its not great but alhamdulillah:). Will strive harder for term test insyaallah.

i know how i always blog abt sch..hahahha...but thats the only thing that kept this blog from dying..kekeke

To all those people who are studying hard and surviving sch life..Fight On!!! Dont be discouraged:))

p/s: congrats~~

term test in two weeks..woooh~~..wow im soooo excited....-____-

things happened..haha and its stupid..experience la eh..heh

im dead..im soo dead,research still stagnant,studying still on-going....and been getting bad feedbacks...i did try my best....i donno how im gonna score my quizzes...not to say my upcoming tests.

hmmph....and if im ever being inconsiderate to you all,anybody..im sorry...


me ="the short girl with big eyes"

This week has been one of the most tiring week ever...

studying non-stop,took the quiz and felt like bleargh....

interactions have been okay....i do take a long time to be extrovert...especially in this quite new environment. Since i kept quiet most of the time because im tired, im emo now..my guy frens whom always avoid me,i donno why...have opened up to me and this is wat they say "eh,lets sit beside aisyah,later she emo.."

Eyes are beautifully bloodshot and dark circles forming under my eyes like smudged black chalk.
Face like spongebob when he didnt sleep,mood like volcano which can errupt anytime.
(I do miss writing essays..hahahahh....XDD.)

as the weeks advance...its getting harder to catch up...and all those pop quiz during tuts...wahlao eh sooo -____-.....and the bad part is its included in your coursework that is 50%....i cant afford to flunk....but its getting harder...uhuhuhuu

i........just hope evrything's gonna be okay.....

"ure funny when you talk,but ure seriously quiet when u dont"

sooo...this is poly life...hehehe...it has only been 2 weeks...but its here already, stress that is.

tired...and sleep deprived..but the good thing is i never sleep during lectures watever it is. I pity my frens who never take bio n amaths..they're struggling while im progressing,although i tried helping them with all my might..i still think its not enough...hmmm and i found myself thinking how to teach them in a simpler way...and this is = "you're like a mother"...-____-

Since im the only one that have all those basics..even though i flunked last time...im getting it now,i understand fully....i dont really wanna be the smartypants in the class...i want to be normal but do well in her studies...if you know what i mean..hehe..i got a "so u're the brains in the class" during HAP tut today..and i like but i also dont like it..lol

Hoping everything goes well and wishing all those people who are having a hard time,good luck:)

Orientations

3 days of orientation~

my class is kinda multiracial,and filled with girls..only 3 guys...and first day was sooo...*wat to do,huh?,do i have to shout?,hi my name is.....*tat sort of stuffs..

but i guess the bridging prog,help me to adapt faster n took the initiative first. i do adapt fast somehow but now,i do it at a super fast rate...aiyyo.

i cheered,i shouted,i shamelessly talk to anybody beside me,ask for their numbers and so forth. well.i did feel awkward most of the time,but i just think tat i need to open up,jump from one grp to another and know everyone,seriously im a "hopper"...i found myself in diff *cliques*..lol,there's only like 16 in my class,i think.

its tiring its hot and sometimes i feel that its stupid..haha..but thats wat orientation is all about. Today,the last day..somehow i can see thru who my classmates are already, there's the 'every single thing,complain'..the kpop grp, the "im a f****** vulgar person", the "im okay like this,leave me alone",the hyper ones....hahahah.

this will be like my class for 3 yrs...i felt that i got to know everyone already but that's just bcoz im a "hopper"..the others havent really bond yet....*sigh*....lets take things slowly...

i'll work and study harder,try not to worry my care person,and im soo gonna make TP library my next home..heehee

New Experience

i cant believe i actually went to my sch 4 days straight,studying,making new frens..heh

and so the first day was seriously awkward..everyone was quiet,unresponsive and i was the only one who had taken amaths and bio before but score badly...so there in that particular class,i was a 'smartie'...i understood everything,i knew how to solve n answer every question available..but i admit the teacher gave very good explanation which cleared my previous doubts:)

i started to make fren with a senior,then while waiting for my next class,i made another new fren,fr my same course..we talked but there's an awesomely long "awkward moment"..hahah..i dont know what to say..keke

one by one,i met a few more,intro ourselves,exchange phone numbers,and for the whole 4 days,we were always together,went back together.

It was quite worthwhile:). The guys..umm..i havent make frens yet..still a bit unsure how to approach them and say hi..well,time will clear it all.

its gonna be hard later on,bcoz wat i learnt are just the basics..and the new class will be filled with people good at amaths and bio...dead~

and..haha,when i was asked if there are any hot guys in the other combined madr..i actually answered "im in an all girl school,so i never actually met guys face to face"..and they;malay n chinese alike.."serious ah..hahah"..and i practically covered my face and laugh.."hahah,its nothing wat..its not really weird"..haiii....

tomorrow will be my first day studying in my new school..hehe

well...im not sure if i actually will study much here..all im sure is that its like an enrichment class.

to think positively,its a step forward to prepare myself...the negative side is that im like..umm shud i say hopeless and useless..hahah. its true if i think about it...its my own fault,everything,i didnt study hard enough thats why..whom to complain?myself and no one else...i shudnt whine cos i brought myself to it...hehe

i am slow...when it comes to amaths...although those people are in the APB,when i talk to them on the chatroom,asking bout probs..they are like pros...wow..competition is heading towards me.

okay...the truth will behold...mwoya...hahaha

Get Real

reality has really struck me now...seriously.

the quizzes that i have to do on that APB prog...is not as easy as 1.2.3....its not wat i expected it to be. well..wat do i expect, im in higher-learning..not secondary anymore..i need to put that in mind.

i didnt know log and ln can coincides each other...and there's so much more to muscles and nervous system..

sarcomeres,action potential...somehow i prefer maths than bio..cos there's too much to remember haha.

next week,i'll start the face to face session...so its like im going to school..no diff actually. mon to thurs...3-6 hrs...

and im actually kinda intimidated..although i'll know i'll be able to meet new frens earlier than others...haish..u know how it feels...nerve-wrecking i shud say.

*sigh*....i just hope i can handle it...hope im not so obviously slower than others in understanding haha...and i do heard there's like smart geeks in my course...huhu...i may be a geek but not a smart one which is....BAD...

lets just see then...*breathe..breathe

and soo.last week i had a blast..hehe and it sure was a blast to me till i got sick...i am so weak

lets see...i had a great "slumber party" with beloved frens at raidah's awesome chalet cum party reunion..or watever the name is haha. followed by bowling, endless eating, laid back-ing,human spin-around.

then had class reunion/outing with super sec4p at marina barrage...i admit going there and back made me irritated cos its still quite unaccessible..and there's lots of junkies that made me rofl..haha..cute actually and all those picture taking..until that sickening sore throat just emerge out of nowhere..haizz

fri was a really tiring yet fun day...went out to take cert then movies and so forth with nadia..i acknowledge my exhaustion but i just didnt want to miss such a day..its hard since ure schooling and im not..hehe <33

all this = sick for the next few days with disgusting phlegm and mucus and cough and runny nose..heeehee >_<...

but that week was the best for me...to me spending time with loved ones are precious..i wouldnt want to miss it if possible.

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This week..im okay now but cough is really hard to go away..haha.

and soo i went to my old sch..met raidah and tchs...aww..i miss it soo much...<33.>

But...to my excitement..i have a prog to attend to..since my bio n amaths got unsatisfactory grades..huhuu...its really such a short notice..

I HAVENT REVISE A THING IN 4MNTHS!!!

TT.TT...im soo dead..i forgot nearly evrything..fortunately still have my textbks with me..heh...so i gotta work2 fast...study and remember back everything!!!

so frm 26march to 9april...no going out fr me..12-16 orienation...and wala~~ 19april..the start of schooling. Good luck aisyah...school life's gonna haunt you~~~boooo

and i just realised how long this post is...well..xDD

Freakoo~~

hehe..things brightened up a lil but "sumtin" just pulled me back for awhile...but i wont let it bring me down..=D must think positively.

well,this few days...ive become a weird freak...actually its not like i wanted to be one..it just so happen its me..lol

i wonder too if my personality really matches that of an AB type..hahha..i dont believe it of course just for fun..heheh

for me..non-living things have feelings too..i donno why but i have this thing about i have to use my things fairly or they will feel hurt and sometimes things listen to me..

is it that weird?noo ritee...?hehe..ive been like that since young. and i always start with the righthand first no matter what i do..be it wearing socks or brushing teeth.

hmmph..i totally live in my bambam world then..hahaha. ahh..i wonder if other people out there can accept me as i am..haha

A new change

At last after a really long while..i changed my blog.

hahah..i know its been stagnant and old for a long time..

hmmm...reality hasnt struck me just yet..im still enjoying this slacking life...its not good i know.

and...i know how ive been unsympathetic and unfeeling these few days...im sorry. I've been a listening ear to anyone in my fam or my frens..its just that these few days..i tend to ignore or just listen without any deep feeling or giving any advice..

i myself donno why..even i hate myself for it...even so i feel helpless. i want to try to help..but its just...im not sure myself..i cant seem to put them in my shoes...its always easy for me to do it and understand the situation last time...

so...im sorry if i havent been a good listener to anyone's problems..im really sorry..i'll try my best

these past few months...i just feel like im in somewhat of a paradise..

i did nothing, i enjoyed myself too much..i slacked like a sloth....my life just revolves around me,my comp,and the tv.

sometimes..i feel guilty,because while me being this happy-go-lucky girl that i've never been....there's another part of the world where others are struggling and suffering and dealing with life issues.

it just seems so unreal that im enjoying this much...its just not right...

my always filled inbox is now stagnant..i dont msg as much because i dont know what to say..i cant possibly say im enjoying life and slacking...

did i change?...im sorry..

its been really long since i last updated....

well life is still the same with nothing really new happenings.

that is why there have been no updates..hehe..

till then this blog will remain "dead"....

wait till school starts~..hehe

and btw a big congratulations to my lovely fren raidah!!!!<333

okay..soo its been half a month since i updated..kekek

so today was the day..although i didnt get wat i really wanted but im happy enough with where im posted to..alhamdulillah:)

so..my life revolves around computers and tv..haha. seriously,i never do anything except playing games,watch tv and vids. i dont even eat 3 meals anymore...keke

its really boring and lame..but like my sis says..tis is the time to relax,when school reopens no free time like this anymore.

so lets enjoy this moment till april?..hehe

to all,congratz:)

hmmph...i guess yesterday was stress relieving day...

i ate,spent and really spent...i felt guilty but when i asked my mum "mak...i spent alot..is it ok?"..my mum said" of coz..its your hard earned money"...hehe...i worry too much

its great relieving stress and everything...but it just..hmph...that thought always pop in my head...even if i said im over it..its still etched in me...there will never be a time where i totally forget about it...

life has to go on rite..why brood over it....things will get better eventually insyaallah...

for me and us......it will somehow become better...

haih...with me idling at home watching tv,comp,eat,read...its no wonder my imagination went wild.....hehe..

just hoping for the best..ameen

so today was the "day"..and it sure sucks..heh..

im disappointed and soo forth....but after bawling my eyes out...im over it.

its been..hmm...5 years since i cried this much...and tat was during psle results..haish...wat a memory..

my eyes are red and puffy..hahah...stupid me...i should have just remained composed...but i guess i was unable to..

im sory dad and mum..its not the best of me..and i know i was shocked too by my results..heh

on a side note..im happy im able to at lastttt!!!! pass my amaths..although its a bad pass but at least...hehe.

and to the teachers..im so sorry i disappoint you guys with my bad grades....i'll do better in future and show that an average student like me can be successful and make you guys and me proud...

its true...i've always felt low about myself...i'll change that this year...i want to do my best and prove myself that i can do better.

failure is the mother to success.....ive failed a lot of times..and i understand the feeling of reject..this is only the beginning for me...heh. im determined..go go!!

wow..rambling so much..hahah

2010..a better year for me,us and them:)

like everyone else...... this uncertainty feeling.. anxiety and somehow.. anguish..

haih...ahhh....i wonder how tmr....i dont know how i would react be it bad or good...i just hope...it will turn out good and everyone does good too.....:)

its really nerve-wrecking..... i hate this...well the truth will be out tmr....TT.TT

im......currently idling at home....hahaha

this january..lets just stay at home and rot..kekek

im not sure if i want to go and find a new job...i want the money..but im lazy to work..tsk tsk stk

as the day approach me....my heart...ahhhh....i cant stop myself not thinking about it...every single day will it haunt me..

"are you not confident?"....hai..yes mum...im not....

well..amidst all these "problematic" issues....at least my fandom keep me alive...hehe

new news = good news..recently...hehe...

hope there'll be more..

*praying hard*

Its the 3rd day of 2010 already..one word.."wow"...seriously its so fast

a lot of things happened this year whether its good or bad....and ive gained lots of experiences...

its a new beginning and a new future but it stills stay bleak and blur for me....

the results are coming REALLY soon...and im not prepared...there's this huge burden weighing on me that i feel like going crazy...its the same for everyone i guess\

i dont even know what im going to do after this...its a whole new world~ out there..

I just hope for the best..hehe

well...talking about "best"...the chalet was great!...i miss you guys soo much i didnt even realise it..keke...talking all way till 3am..is really fun but exhaustion will surely conquer you later on..hheheh

and that "play with hair" session..hahahha..i like although its totally absurd..hahahah

thanx to marinah for the hard-worked video compilation..its really nice:)

2010..a big number huh...well...pls do bring in bigger happy events..heh