Done

Well  look who's done with school, like FINALLY!!

I think I've put in the most effort to study for final exams this last sem. Hahah the feeling of accomplishment after yesterday's paper. I was so glad and grateful that i've selected the correct topics to focus on..because there's like tons of theory and my brain can't handle it so study smart.

So...now what?

Congrats to me for applying for a few jobs. But i'm not expecting anything yet and i shall spend this coming week catching up on dramas, some reading (i miss reading, it's been too long) and maybe try to get more fit and lose this belly fattttttt.

Hopefully i get a job in the coming weeks to support myself and also help my mum a bit and save up as well. I can't possibly be depending on my mum for my money and laze around. So that motivation to find a part time job is still there. I think i've been doing various part time jobs, it's like a routine to find one endlessly during my break. I will feel restless and incomplete with no money in my bank when i have no school whatsoever.

Praying everyday that results will gonna be okay and positive for both poly and admission..............

We're slowly ending our little journey

15 Feb 2013 marked the end of MP. The end of frustrations and anxiety..........with a bright note. This overwhelming happiness, this great feeling that i've been searching for. It only occurred after the presentation, when we stepped out of that room. That sigh of relief, that feeling when you know you did your best...and that smile plastered on your face as you know things went well. It was the best day i would say.

As much as I complained or dreaded doing MP most of the time mainly because of our sup, I enjoyed the time spent the whole sem with my two mates tassha and sab for this project. I cant be more thankful to have them as my group mates. I don't think i would be able to lead the group if not for them. I admit, i'm not a great leader and i sometimes slack my way through. But because we helped each other, it is possible. Most of the time, i'm just a leader in name. Kudos to them for being such cooperative members :))

I am really proud of us. The amount of shitloads we went through, we managed to scrape through and produce a quality work (ahem2x self-proclaimed xD) But heyyyy with the amount of information we provided, it should be considered one!

 Without these awesome girls, my poly wouldn't be as enjoying as it had been the past 3 years. I really love them to bits even though i don't really show it. You guys should know hahah

Not to forget our only 3 boys in the class. They've been bullies and dorks but they made the class so much more fun. My bros..i love you guys too < 3 

A10A2 < 3

AY 10. Well we do have a lot of people in the cohort

I can't believe it's actually going to end, this chapter of my life, my poly life. After my two papers, i'll only come back to school in may for graduation. Like a blink of the eye, 3 years just went by like that. I changed a lot, personally.This 3 years taught me a lot and it's a mix of feelings to know that it's actually ending. I'm happy im graduating but i'm kinda sad i'm leaving the school and the people. 

It's not exactly the end yet for now.....and i should save all those feelings and write it all out after graduation

Well...on a side note, had waffles after everything~~ nomnomnom

p/s: pics not mine, credits to sabeera :)

                                                             

                                                             

It's been crazy these few weeks...madness actually.

But what she  told me in depth about her dream...that put a smile on my face, it's absurd, funny, unrealistic and funny hahah.

You know how we always watch dramas..i guess we both are too immersed in it that it happened. OTPs....yeah she's my no.1 fan of this non-existent pairing. She ships it so hard she wants it to be real.

You know how we sometimes imagine all this stuff...dating and such and what would happened if it actually becomes real? Well maybe it's just me.....sometimes i do that when im bored before i go to sleep, blame those dramas hahaha.

For someone who never ever experience liking a guy (except for celebs), asked out and those stuff......it's fun to think about it sometimes. But no, im not desperately into finding boyfriends or thinking being single at my age is not normal. I think it's perfectly fine.

But....i do admit i get confused between liking a person and like like a person..see the difference? If i think he's cute, it doesnt necessarily means i like like him....most of the time i just want to be friends. Those type of girl-guy relationship where you can talk about anything and feel comfortable. Not the committed girlfriend boyfriend. Why can't we have a normal friendship hahah. Watching dramas, i think the sweetest relationship are those type. Isnt it nice to have a guy whom you find such ease to talk with

And yeah....it's really nice to have a conversation with you. We don't talk that often but when we do, i like how it just flows out nicely. But it is a pity that we both are the shy type, so unless we sit beside each other or met up after lects...we wont talk.

Hahahah, just a random thought.......people be talking, i be thinking..i think i watch too much dramas that's why.

I cant believe im typing all these out, but this is fun

p/s: we should probably sit down one day and just have a talk..that would be nice 

My heart broke into a million pieces when she said they're going to replace it after all..........all my,our efforts to produce a logo that's visible

For a moment, it was mental breakdown for me....and I am still recovering from it.

If I knew, I wouldn't spend so much time on it....

It hurts...it hurts so badly, ouch

Do you know how lonely it can get for me....

It's just a feeling of emptiness....

It's mentally draining....

It's tiring....

Why do i always end up having to give in, initiate......can't i just be on the receiving side sometimes..?

Am i being too emotional, am  i asking too much care....

Is it wrong to feel this way...

Maybe i am just very tired from everything..

After tons of attempts to meet up. After months of planning, at last we found a date where most of us can make it. Chalet was cancelled so in the end, we rented the bbq pit and decided to have a reunion food session there..06/01/13

It was a success, unexpectedly haha. Because most of the time, only ~15 would make it, but this time round more than 20 came down :) With the generous Nir treating us with wholesale bbq food, Im's homemade marinated wings by her mum, packs of marshmallows, my cupcakes and Masyitah's...it was a food festival!

It was just really overwhelming happiness meeting up with these bunch or dorky people hahaha. It's been so long since we have a proper meetup and not clique meetup >.<. After all these years, we still are the same when we're together the kecohness and craziness are just like last time.

From 4pm to nearly 630pm, we spent there trying to lit up a fire lol. The wind was against us, the fire starter sucks. It was nearly 7pm when we managed to bbq foods. We were already starving and food were just starting to cook. As usual, everytime there's a bbq, i'll be the one cooking and testing the chicken wings, making sure it's cooked properly to be eaten hahah.

Laughter and reminiscence filled up the entire atmosphere throughout. We even prayed there, totally made ourselves at home. We laid a mat and took turns and some jemaah to pray. It was just a cute and beautiful  scene. Made me miss those times when we will lay out all the praying mats and pray together in class.

Apparently, i am the "girl who sits at concourse in front of her laptop/discussing with a group of freinds"...hahah i cant even they made it as if i dont have a life.....well in sch i guess i dont. And Nadia with her excuse of "spring cleaning ______". We are all forever "front-stabbing" each other. Good times~

These bunch of people that i met for 7 years and some for 15 years (fr p1), it's amazing how we still manage to keep in contact until now. Some are in London, Cairo, Malaysia..each furthering their studies and continuing their journey towards their dream and success. While the rest of us are continuing our studies here in our homeland.

Friends till the end? Yes, i wished for that. I hope we can continue on even when we're all successful in our paths InsyaAllah.

More outings soon pls~~ I love the time spent even though i had class the next morning and didnt have enough sleep xD

The year is going to end. 2013...should be a fresh new beginning, i guess.

Honestly, it's kinda scary for me. I have yet to make concrete decisions. I do have a plan for next year but, planning so much..you dont even know what's going to happen later on.

My dream....was to study overseas and get my degree, continue masters later on if possible. But, in my situation, as much as i know there's a higher chance for me to be accepted in various uni in Australia or UK compared to Singapore, i cant. Financially, i am unable to. And so, i've planned to try my best to get into SIT and then work....if no SIT, means i'll work for 2 years and study abroad (which i hope not).

But in life, you can plan so much without any definite results. That's why i hate making decisions and planning so ahead of time. Higher expectations would only mean more disappointment, and i dont want that.

I hate to say this...to be honest, i still have my doubts and hesitations about my future job prospective. A nutritionist, a nutrition researcher, a dietitian..? I am interested in writing a cooking book for healthier choices. I would love to bake and make a dessert recipe book  that includes alternatives to make it healthier and such. And i dream of opening a tea and cupcake shop. I have so much in mind, but i dont know which one..maybe do both at once? hahah like a fun~

To think about the future is a must, but i love living enjoying the present hahah. So currently, living in present and thriving for the best in what im doing right now is my priority. Well, sometimes it does sucks when things just screw up and your efforts are neglected but that's life, right.

I hope for a happy and successful 2013. I pray for the best, for myself, my family and my friends. May the force be with us!~~ ^_^

Most of the time, all the time actually.. i hate to be that person who don't know anyone, don't know what's going on...just ignorant of everything.

It's not like i want to be ignorant....and i do want to find out who/what/where/why. It's just that sometimes,things just get way over, i'm too outdated and then...i start giving up to find out more.

It's tiring for me to keep asking as much as people keep explaining to me.

But yeah....it is my fault for not being attentive in the beginning. I know....and i've been trying hard to be part of everything. So don't ever think i never even thought about it, never take the initiative whatsoever, i do care. Even i hate myself for being such an insensitive, ignorant person......i don't even know what's wrong with me.

Yesterday was the last day of term tests~~

As much as I 'suffered' during the day trying to stuff my brain with the crack load full of information, the paper was doable, everything that i went through came out, alhamdulillah :)

Spent the rest of the day with bestie, watched "A Werewolf Boy" . A movie I've been dying to watch, well firstly because of the intriguing plot, secondy, my OTP Song Joong Ki and Park Bo Young. Started shipping these two, while watching fancam of them promoting the movie. I know this ship wont go real, but i cant help myself, they looked damn cute and comfortable with each other.

So while waiting for the show, as usual, we went to the arcade and played basketball. Hahah, our favourite hang-out place. Released stress playing one of the game where you hit the mole continuously when it appears...hit till my arm felt numb hahaha.

So....the movie was really good. I like the plot, i like how everything made sense. I love how its very warm and fluffy and funny and then its sad and heartbreaking...it's bittersweet. It's a movie where i can go watch for a second time. It's that kind of movie where you'll go "aaawwww", and then cry your eyes out later. The people behind me specifically the guy was irritating the world out of me, i wanted to kill him. he was whining and complaining, i bet he was forced to go with his girlfriends. He kept comparing it with twilight, saying it's the korean twilight, oh dear god no. It's more like edward scissorshand. But it the end he was crying his eyes out like a baby, sniffing non-stop, i was distracted and can't really "feel" it and cry properly lol.

It ended quite late, and all the shops are closing, so we ended the day with chewy junior~  A day well spent for me, started depressing yet quite productive and tears and laughter in the end.

Holidays are starting for me, hurrah!!~~~ but i still feel quite bleargh by the fact that i have to keep checking my website and do more changes for my major project. But....i shall enjoy till next monday at least hehe.

Im not always fond of taking the initiative to speak to someone first if i dont know them that well....so i always appreciate it when the other person starts the conversation. It's awkward for me to start talking when we dont even talk that much.....and if we dont know that well, and im always the one talking first, i have this feeling that im annoying you or something. So...it was really nice to be able to continue the conversation since you started it first. I felt more relieved hahah. It's just my personality...it'll take time for me to talk to someone so casually and not sound like an awkward turtle trying to start a conversation..So, thank you for yesterday..(:

"You seems to be more into nutrition, right..?".....well, spot on~!