Yesterday was really crazy for me...

It started with a bad day of me not being able to remember the first topic and the mistake of me only focussing more on topic 2 which only one question came out. I was really disappointed...when i met with tudung gang,i broke down and cried. Really..i thought i was stronger. It was only a quiz. But thinking back..i broke down because the inside me cant take it anymore...and letting it out was just the way.

But i started to become happy again after tudung gang comforted me and my classmates were worried and waited for me when they noticed i was missing. Thanks u guys:)

My eyes were puffy all along hahaha....and i had the greatest laugh meeting nir,nadia,nabihah and ficky...really ur presence just filled my day.

Friends are really the people u need in ur life..without them you would feel lost and lonely..thank you~

things havent been working out well this week...and the news of my dear fren's father passed away...it adds to it.



It was shocking to me..to imagine in her situation i cant even..im speechless. Munirah, u are very strong dear. How u managed to smile and hold it in,i am proud of you. When you let it out and cry, i felt relieved and sad at the same time because letting it out is better than keeping it inside of you but seeing you cry hurts me deep inside. In some way i felt useless that i couldnt do anything to help you but just being there infront of you yesterday.



I hope you'll continue being strong and continue life as usual..we will always love you and be by your side.....

Hey~~

So first week of school...how was it? Oh "awesomely" great. I didnt know 2nd sem was this hard..im really struggling. And its not helping that im like always in holiday mood.

2 assigned projects this week..2 more projects comin my way nxt wk.

Homeoworks are piling up..and i have to force myself to adapt to the busy lifestyle again..haish.

well,enough of me whining of sch... On a side note,happy to meet my fellow classmates who always "shower" me with their endless love >.<..hahah. And meeting tudung gang:)

I hope i'll survive this sem..i needa get good grades,nope super good grades../dies. eh..no! Insyaallah :)

Sometimes wished are unfulfilled..hopes are dashed, but life still moves on albeit all these happenings.

Things dont always go your way...dreams are shattered, however you still need to force a positive thinking inside of you.

Mistakes can become misunderstandings....doubts can be harmful....

The world does not revolve only around you... things may be awful and emotions may go wild .

Just remember...there's Him...and also somehow somewhere there is at least a person who cares about you and also needs you during that phase.

These things happen...and i hope i'll be able to continue to contain myself well. Im not matured at a young age for nothing. Being responsible and a "2nd mum" since 11yrs old is no mean feat.

I'll start thinking about others before thinking about myself bcoz in this world of over 6 billion people, a lot more have experienced worst. I just experienced a tiny weeny bit of life.

Live life...:)

p/s: i dunno wat im babbling..heh

hmm............mayb its just a test for me to keep on working hard. Life aint that easy.

its just tat i cant help but be soo disappointed at myself when i see my results. i know i can do better than tat...i know. Tats why its even harder that i found myself to be scoring so badly.

Crying wont help,wats done cant be undone..............i knew it,when i have no confidence things will turn out otherwise.

Its just sad.....T.T...

heelllo dead blog~~

yes,YES!!! at long last..my exams are done,and here i am updating this near to death blog,haha

So...lets c....my exams,how did i do? well i dunno....altho i managed to answer all questions and finish in time...im not really sure if i did well. Last min REAL studying and walaaaa~

Its the 5th day of raya already! and..i've only been to one house lol. For studies..i sacrificed,but now i guess i can gooo already.

Im just really happy everything's done with, to those takin exams later good luck!! keeping a positive mind helps..dont ever think u cant do it coz u never know wat ure really capable of:) wow i sound like a counsellor(?)....hahah

today was fun (discard every insignificant thinking of horrible maths just now) and i had a great time. I am HAAPPY:))))) alhamdulillah,hope my results are okay tho..lol

its been 10 days of ramadhan already..so fast~

holidays.....i sure use it up..slacking at home! hahaha. well it doesnt last long coz reality sets in and tada~ ive prepared my own first study schedule..remember those pri n sec days where tchrs always told us to do our own timetable,ive never done it,haha! but i did this time..i cant afford to use my brain schedule anymore bcoz i tend to not follow and be sooooo flexible with it..if u know wat i mean >.<.

in 2 weeks,exams will haunt me...hehe. after raya,one more paper to take and wooosh im done...for this sem tat is..hehehe.

this raya,i will be the one baking everything...look forward to it!! weeheee

my love...my precious love has come to me. :)

after months of mugging and studying everyday...at last one month of rest..altho its called "study week" watever..im gonna relax and study only when i want to..hahaha

i just felt relieved now...i can finally relax well at least for the first 2 wks of my break..im gonna start studying the next few bcoz of exams.

trying my hard to score well...i need that scholarship,if i can...i dont wanna burden my parents that much. at least with a scholarship to cover the remaining semesters,they wont have to always worry..i also dont wanna burden my bro and sis...

sooo..im gonna try aim As and Bs..try not to have a C,D,F..wahhhh..easier said than done,haha

its been tiring as usual..and a lil add to it is tat im sick..well not seriously sick..just flu:).

I guess its been hard on everybody...stay strong and think positively. Its easier said than done but ive been doing it and it kept me living. Altho some people thot i would go jump off the building because im quiet and calm..wat the hell..haha.

im still trying hard to cope with everything...its near exams already,time sure pass like rocket. I was still slacking my way 3 months ago..haha

Its been quite okay for me...ive shown my true colours i guess...well tats a sign tat im comfortable with people already:) "ju-on wannabe" is my nickname now...come on i just said the boy in ju-on who meows is cute..haish.

so till then..wish me luck:) i screwed up my quiz..hahahahahahahahahah...woookay lets see how my results are..ooohhoooooo XD

haih...been too busy to update.

Quizzes..i screw them up real bad..TT.TT...wahlao,things are getting harder and im struggling. Im tired everyday...i even overslept once,thank goodness it was lecture.

I seriously need to buck up..my marks are the same or lower. baaaaddd....exam in sept....aaahhh. Oh pract exam in 2 wks..AAAAAHHHH!!!...and my pract exam this time is use the ingredients given and cook it and then do report on it...deeaddd.

haiiii...this is life..need to get use to it and move on. Oh and before i forget...i think i better go do some reading or something. Its not like i wanna study everynite..i just need to or i'll fall behind. wait...i think i'll do that tmr >.<...today was exhausting!