Hello Hello....!!
wah...its been sooo long since i last post..hehe..
lets just live and forget..woosh score market is plunging man..weesh..
haha..okay lets just remember about yesterday...so wats with yesterday..?hehe..woohoo it was KPN...seriously it was my first time going to such events....and i have never in my life ever went to th indoor stadium..hahah...It started at 8 although i went in at 730..sat with nadia,atiqah and shafiqah..we sat at the corporate's thanx to 'her'..so it was only 4 of us...luckky zee got to sit infront near the stage..hehe...i was...eheh..really excited..with the balloon stix and soo on..i nearly freaked out..hahah...we wait and the host andy.park jung ah,and this singaporean haha..came on the stage..everyone was cheering like heck..i cant hear my own voice..haha....and soo...woohoo..junjin came out...he look so tired..heh...kesian...next chae yeon,jewelry,kim jong wook..nice voice seyh...VOS!..wooohh..i got goosebumps hearing they singing...,next 2PM!hee...i was soo engrossed looking at their perf..and only managed to take a few vids and pics...U-kiss next..haha..wats with rebonding hairs..keke...andy perfs then Wondergirls!there sure was lots of 'wonderfuls' out there cheering...
It was reallly fun..i cant believe i actually sang along the chorus and cheer like heck..it seemed like i was desperately relieving my stress haha....by the ! u should know those are the huge perfs....and then end..awww
went down when somebody shout"taecyeon!!".buuush a swarm of human bees came bustling...and "AAAAAAHHH!!!!"..hahaa..i was like..wooouh....on the way to carpark we saw the double deck bus that 2PM and U-kiss took..seriously i saw them but then they switch off the light and wahlao...i dont know if up there are stars or just crews...but im sure i saw spiky hairs..hha if u know wat i mean....i just wave awkwardly..haha kental...
We were in the car..and we saw the"bus" in front of us...next we're beside them!"AAAHHH!"again...but we cant see them..we were in a car which is too short to see them up there..hahaha...we were like stalkers man..wahaha...

I know this post is seriously long..haha..dont mind me..the pics and vids will come later on sice im not using the laptop..heeeeheeee:)

This shall be my last post i guess...hmmph dont know la eh..
so last sat..which is quite long time ago..me,nadia and syera's grp jalan raye..we even went to ust zainab's and ust samiah's house..it was hehe..awkward shall i say..expectedly..the pics...later la eh..after exams?..heehee..
for today i went to kutipan jumaat at masjid raudhah and i got quite a sum for myself..hehehe..but i know there are peep with lots more..thanks to all those pakciks out there..hee

exam is this coming monday..and i have not finished studying which is a nightmare...i totally have to pass my amaths and emaths...seriously..or else i'll have to drop out my amaths and waste my time and parents moneh studying for nearly a yr...its pressurising and stressing i could die..seriously die. with lots of things to think of and study...i cant stop but think of the negative effect..i cant force myself to say i can do it..yay...i cant..why?ouh soo depressing...good grades come to mama......sorry if this post is longwinded ,whiny,irritatingly lame and boring..watever...i reaally feel like dying..ooops shouldnt say that......................

PICTURES!!

1st Day of Raya:

Friday 3 Oct:

assalam.alaik,
yesterday was the first hari raya outing with frens...well ididnt expect us to be a grp of 15..hehe..i thot it was only a few..but no worries the more the merrier..hehe
so start of from pasir ris to tampines...first time i felt that we had lots of time but since nekma have to go for tuition we rushed a bit..ouh missed pops in seoul..hehe..
had lots of fun kidnapping other people's hp and other's lil sis..hahah..not literally..heeh...sorry if i hug ficky and nir's lil sis..heheh..i just love kids..if they dont try too hard to attract attention haha..they are soo cute heehee and soo light..of coz la eh.
took loads of pics using my bro's cam..hehe..and ust syikin's house is soo beautiful..its country style and its nice...and her room wow!..got LCD tv okay..wahlao....how i wished for that kind of room..hehe but i have two sisters to share with..heee
the pics...i'll upload later on..heehee

ok..bye..monday schooling..ahhh!!

Its the first day of raya..so i had apologized and said Selamat Hari Raya to my family..hehe..instead of being all emo and stuff..as usual everyone was like joking around waiting for the green enveloped..hee
next went to nanny's house and hehe we were late..arrived at around 415pm..i thot my cute cuzzie went back already..but fuuh they havent even arrived yet..so watched tv then "assalamualaikum!"yay!! my cute cuzzies...
well..i only get along with little cuzzins..and those who are like 11 and above i wont bother haha...
darimi kept imitating me..when i do this he'll do that..hahah..and daniah ouh soo cute..she loves it when i carry her on my lap..naseb ringan..haha..they both are soo cute i wanna kidnap them for a day..can?hahaha..

mayb its only the start of raye..soo.i dont eat lots...i didnt even eat at my nanny's house..i felt full..well lets see a few more days and i'll eat like there's no tomorrow..heheh

have a nice day there:)

Its hari raya already!
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri..Maaf Zahir Dan Batin
Hereby i wanna say sorry :
if i made you all angry,
if i was too honest that it break your heart,
if i scolded you all when on monitress duty or not,
if i was too whiny(safia i know i whined too much at you..heehe),
if i was not a good fren enough,
if i did mistakes towards you all,
if i shouted at you all,
if i made such a boring expression that it ruins your day.....and so on and so forth...there's too many to include but i hope you all understand and forgive me..heehee..will you forgive me?


And to my family,sorry for everything...

Thinking about all the mistake i did..hmm..soo sad...well..have a great raya and stay happy always!XD<3<3

weehee...
tonight is hari raya!!..haha..Selamat Hari Raya everyone!!
i just finished helping my mum weave the ketupat...its not that easy to weave,i only managed to do it after 2 hrs of teaching haha..very slow huh..ya i know...i cant wait to help my mum bake cake lapis and coconut macaroons..woooh!!
so happy that today im not schooling till next mon..and yeah..im sooo gonna eat a lot tonight..my mum is making a feast..heehee.

Random:
they are all progressing now with great success..when are you all coming out to the scene..come on..hurry....please dont leave anybody out...that person is emo-ing on the cyworld..heee

overwhelming emotions keep rushing through me..

sadness,happiness,insecurity...

kept thinking of the past..memories,lovely or just traumatic..

my inner self seems to be bleak..

lost of confidence...unsure of the future even the present..

failing is overshadowing me...

loneliness is overcoming me..

it feels weird.........though its the truth i have to accept

yoyo...
hmm.its friday..yay!& its 145am rite now....alone outside the living room laughing alone like a maniac.. watching vids...talking-typing..heh..wooo~~~

cut my hair already..really short one..well to me..coz ive always had this long hair...haha...and talking bout the day i wanna cut my hair....me and mareena,raidah,nir,qeeyo,qaqa were going to break our fast at century so on the way i tot i shud cut my hair since i dont wanna go out on sat..mareena accompanied me there..thnkuso much..saranghaeyo..hee...and guess what...the muslimah shop was supposed to close at 6..i arrived at 520...and the person said"bsk ble?..dtg bsk eh dik..org ptg rmbt da balek ah.."i was like watta...i came all the way and she went back already?!....so we decide to round the place to find other salon.....round and round we go..at last found this one empty salon..well only the hairstylist is there..and its cheaper $12..saved my $3...heh..it was a bob..and some how..i felt weird...was it the rite one for me..?...oklah..wateva.. so then went to eat at food culture...and we talked..laughed..silly jokes..and etc...prayed and went arnd as if tmr got no sch...hahah..

well..i was really"bluurish"today...

chem was unexpected...and i was disappointed....amaths was stressing....and i felt like crying...i tried hard to control myself and force myself to stay happy and it really hurts suppressing myself..but it just overshadowed me...sorry if i was not responding...or ignoring..

sneeze2 go away..please never come back again...its been 2 weeks so give me a break..i really abhore you soo...2 packs of tissue a day is no mean feat....so please insyallah..you'll go by next week..?

change the song..again..hahah..its fun changing songs ..and this song reminds me of an anime series..i doono but somehow it sounded familiar...hmm
3 down,5 more to go..oh..test please end quickly..heehee..OMONA!...after a weak of rest for hari raya..then..AHHH! 2 more weeks for exam...ouh man..even test i havent started..talk about exam..haish...im always like this...so i guess i'll start revising by tomorrow..ya..i HAVE to!
this is random..hee..i seriously wanna cut my hair shorter..anybody wanna accompany me and cut together..?>_<..heeheee..i donno why...its my obsession of the desire to have short hair..hahaha...and cats where are you?i think they are captured and killed for food at the zoo..poor cats..i havent seen garfield and dinner since the start of this month...where are they?i miss them..heh..

whats done is done...